The sun came down at last and the night fell .And though i already started to 
sleep i woke myself up to enjoy the silence &the darkness without any interruption
this is a very rare occasion and though sleep looks like the best remedy for an awfully 
long day , solitude and silence seem even more appealing.  
I wish i can bottle up some calmness from this night to when i actually need.God  
knows how quickly i lose my nerves, whats the point of resting 10 hours if later 
on i would snap at an instant? May be there is a reason for being this hyper secretive
person, a reason that i can't still put my hands on yet. All i can do is wonder if there
is by any chance somebody equally insane, because all the people that i know are 
very aware of their feelings and action i mean, how the heck do they do it?
This is definitely taking the dramatic route considering the recent decline,&it's hard 
not to think about it and a no return point, cause i feel there will be some permanent
damage if i don't do something about it, but what is there to do,,i left no stone 
unturned , and though it was painful as a $T^#&$ i did my part of fighting.
nothing as a reward but a #$*& up decline juts the kind of shit that would make 
anybody want to gossip, how about if i magically disappear or even better have a
 end, or may be a crazy people's jacket to make sure nobody including myself'll get          
 hurt This is all by your own making enjoy the results